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I am a 22 going on 23 year old woman-child with not enough money to live like I am and too much pride to live like a should.

I have tons of ambition but little motivation.

I am confused because I was told the world worked one way but am now finding out it doesn’t work at all.

I am terrified because I simultaneously fear both success and failure.

I would rather live in my head than in the real world.

I have a part time job that I blame for everything and showers, more often than not, simply get relegated to my to do list.

I have a to do list. It is exceptionally unique because it never in fact gets done.

I am easily loved but do not love easily. 

I am lonely but hate people.

I know all this and I know that it is my fault.

I think I have a serious hydration problem.

I’ve developed the bad habit of ignoring when I’m thirst to the point that I don’t get thirsty anymore. My body goes straight to hungry in hopes that I will ingest something with liquid in it. I usually don’t.

My version of “thirsty” now is my body suddenly becoming weak and dizzy and that’s how I remember I haven’t had anything to drink in over 24 hours and I should probably do that right the fuck now.

I’m just going to go ahead and call Bullshit.

Beckett’s not going anywhere. It is not in fact the job she wants. Beckett has always been about catching bad guys not the fame or “complexity”. She has spent a good portion of the show butting heads with higher ups who wouldn’t let her do her job which she then ended up doing anyway as well as doing their jobs for them exactly like in this episode. Why would she want to join them? Unless they spin something to do with Senator Bracken, she’s staying put and they aren’t fooling me.

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